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Monday 110: Struggles

Monday, 29 May 2017

This month, for me, has been a bit of a struggle.  It has been a long work month, and a month filled with getting things fixed.

The Acura needed to be fixed, to the tune of $1700.00, which took a lot of money out of “the plan” –  the plan to pay off debt, to continue to save, and to move forward toward greater financial independence.  It has been a month seemingly filled with niggling expenses, little needs, big needs, but nothing especially rewarding other than the fact we at least have the money to do what needed doing.  That feels good – being able to afford these things.

What I don’t like is the fact I could not meet our intended goals for the month.  In other words, life got in the way!  When I think about it, perhaps work has been the problem this month, rather than our economics . . . ?

Work has been filled with intensity – getting things prepped for one big day, and a day which I did not thing was worth the effort.  It was a waste of time and energy and focus – too much focus.  There were a lot of other things which could have been done, things which, in my opinion, could have better served those involved.

Now I am feeling burned out and even more desirous of a change in my job, but that is not going to happen.  I have too much invested here, and at my age, no desire to find another place to be.  I really like where I work – I am just not really happy with some things.  I don’t know if I could change anything at present.  Even changing my work schedule is not really possible.

In reality, this is a conundrum.  I would love to be able to retire now, but that is not what I want, because I want to meet certain financial goals.  Maybe a year earlier than planned?  Sometimes, I think my job is killing me, and that’s when I have to fight it in creative ways, and for the past two weeks, creativity has been non-existent.  Time to return to the part of my life which is my life saver.